Hello Beautiful People, thanks for stopping by to visit me!
You're most probably reading this to see whether I'm the right fit for helping to get you to where you want to be?
It's really hard to know where to start and what to share as I have so much I could say....
I'll go with my gut for starters and see where it takes us....
I grew up as an only child in a small town with a single mother who tried her best but couldn't put food on the table or provide for me.
I was naturally very athletic, when I was 5 I remember my first sports day, I was getting ready for my first stand and jump competition, I was scared at everyone watching me, even though I had never participated at anything, I had a knowing-ness inside of me that knew I would surpass the 3 stakes in the ground labelled 1, 2, 3 (3 being the furtherest away), I didn't want to draw attention to myself or do something outside of the regulations so I pretended to put in a really big effort and I jumped, everyone gasped....I looked around and I had landed just past the 3rd stake. I didn't know what to do as I had tried not to get there...
Little did I know that in that moment had emerged huge standards and expectations that I would have to fill in the future.
My strength and speed for such a 'lanky' girl always used to surprise everyone,
So naturally, it made me feel significant, unique and worthy.
I always wanted to be an Olympian when I grew up, that and I thought that when I got there it would fix all of my insecurities, flaws and provide me with a nice bank balance to rid me of my poverty consciousness sown from childhood.
After I finished struggling through high school I left my small town and moved up to Christchurch to train to become a Personal Trainer. I then worked at Les Mills for nearly 10 years while I was chasing after my rainbow (or my self-worth).
Somewhere in the middle of that time I BROKE DOWN.
What was really interesting was that I was in the best shape of my life and I was performing the best I ever had in my life, it didn't make sense.
I hit rock bottom in every aspect of my being.
It was like I had died yet I was still awake...
the living dead was well and truly rampant within me.
I spent the next 10 years battling through life carrying my chronic fatigue suitcases everywhere I went... I tried not to let on to anyone what was wrong with me...after all, chronic fatigue and all those illnesses are just in your head aren't they?
Those 10 years have been the hardest and the most revealing years of my life... I had no idea of who I was or what I was on this earth for...who was I if I wasn't achieving every week in the sports arena.
Chronic Fatigue was so debilitating that I had to surrender and finally listen to my body. It forced me to learn how to love myself and listen to my body and the feedback it gives us. My huge need for external worthiness and significance silenced any feedback that was coming through.
It gave me even more insight into my clients health and wellness, I now had huge understanding and knowledge around preventative health.
Just like the 5 year old, we all have that knowing-ness inside each of us. We all hold the key that can unlock the answers we need in order to be the best version of ourselves....we just need to let go and listen.
From there, we can take ACTION!!
"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, she became a butterfly..."